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Because of the negative response from the person I attempted to reconcile with, satan tried to make me question whether or not I really did hear God. But I’m sure I wasn’t hearing satan tell me to obey the Word in Matthew 5:23-24. Satan will not tell you to obey God. But I’m sure he did speak to the other person, and told them not to release their offense and participate in the reconciliation.
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And God said unto Moses, I AM THAT I AM . . . −Exodus 3:14
As I was sitting in my kitchen crying and pondering my future, I heard something in my spirit rise up and speak to my mind. It was different from the confusing flow of thoughts that seemed to be making me angrier and angrier the more I entertained them. This was more like a gentle dove. I heard this question:
“Do you believe that I can heal your marriage?”
I quickly answered, “God, you don’t seem to be healing any marriages that are around me—only the marriages of the people I see [telling their story] on Christian television are being healed.”
Related devotional: "Unforgiveness: If I Were Judge..."
Have you ever gone down to the altar on Sunday morning, hoping an elder could just lay hands on you this one last time and you would leave that altar never having to experience another day of the pain of unforgiveness? I have been in seasons where I wanted desperately to conquer the torturing thoughts that played scenes of offensive words said and deeds done to me. Then another altar call would come, and I would realize, that although I was sincere about the desire to be delivered from its bondage in the last call, it was still there – unforgiveness. Forgiveness is possible and God will provide the grace to do it as soon as we ask and choose to forgive. It does not have to be a long drawn out process. But can someone just please talk about the hindrances that caused me not to make that choice sooner when I was struggling with forgiving someone? Have I been the only one who struggled with unforgiveness?
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After years of worrying over a broken relationship, God spoke to my heart through the Matthew 5:23-24 scriptures. He instructed me to go and make an attempt to reconcile with the person. I didn’t want to do it, and I gave God all the reasons why I didn’t think I should. I reminded Him of every previous attempt to reconcile that I had made and every good deed I had done.
And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, but have not love, it profits me nothing. Love suffers long . . . (1 Corinthians 13:3-4 NIV).
For one whole week I felt a tremendous burden in walking toward the restoration of this relationship. All that week, I knew that I was walking in disobedience, because I hadn’t yet obeyed God’s instructions to go and make an attempt to reconcile.
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Although I love my daughters very much, I have not judged them fairly in some cases. For instance, Candace was hurt by something I had said to her. (I had repeated this verbal offense several times throughout the years). It was not my intention to cause her pain, but I truly thought I was right in what I was saying about her. I could tell she was hurt, but when I calculated the reasons that she said she was in pain, I summed them up to be invalid because she was wrong and was just too stubborn to admit it. I noticed that she had become distant from me but remained cordial. This began to concern me. I hadn’t realized for a while that something was wrong in the relationship. Why didn’t she tell me what was bothering her? I prided myself on trying to keep a good, open relationship with my daughters. But pride will get you in trouble. It will make you think you’re doing better than you really are. When we’re not being led by the Holy Spirit in our conversations and actions, we’ll mess up every time and cause extensive damage in our relationships.